It’s the end of the semester. I think back to a year ago and where I was mentally – and I can say that I am not quite as burnt out as I was a year ago. That, my friends, is progress; slow, ugly, but evident.
I gave out my final and it went, as expected, brutal. About 75% of my kids failed. Aside from a couple of exceptions, you failed my class if you did not show up to my exam. I don’t know how I feel about that, because many of those students do not deserve to pass.
We talk a lot about “passing kids on”. These kids were passed on from elementary to middle and to now high school. They will once again be passed on into the real world, and I’m afraid of what’s going to happen to many of them. I have students who can’t read or write, and students who are pregnant or on their second child. It’s frightening. We resent the passing of kids on, but we ourselves do it. I don’t feel comfortable doing it but if you have “too many” failures, the adminstration will hound you because, after all, it’s the teacher’s fault if a student fails – there’s never any shouldering of parents, the students, or the community. That’s not to say there aren’t any bad teachers (because there are), but students shouldn’t be numbers. Education should not be about numbers. When 80% of your school is failing at least one subject, this is beyond any teacher. This goes into the heart of the community. If students fail – they fail; they should be held back and accountable for their failure and not passed off because of fear of not passing AYP or meeting state or federal standards. It is utterly unacceptable to have a 17 year old who cannot read or write.
It doesn’t matter if there is a new principle next year, or a new superintindent because the culture will not change. No Child Left Behind is a band-aide on a deep wound that cuts to the very core of this country’s problem. There not only needs to be government reform on education, but parental reform as well.
January 2, 2009 at 11:32 pm
Hey there. Did you go home to Ohio this year over break? I went back to Cincinnati for the holidays, and it was very strange. I have been in Atlanta for 1.5 years but it does not seem like my true home. It is becoming home–just not totally there yet. However, Cincinnati did not feel like home either. Wondering if you had any of the same feelings?
It sounds like your second year of teaching is going a little better than your first. So far in my second year of teaching, I am more burned out at this point of the year than I was last year. Winter break could not have come any sooner for me! So it seems like you have made progress:) I’m not sure if I have or not. Sometimes it is hard to judge how affective I am as a teacher.
Do you think you’ll apply to another school district next year? Or are you looking into grad school?
March 25, 2009 at 6:23 pm
Hey there —
Definitely can relate to a lot of those sentiments — especially when you say it goes “into the heart of the community.” We just had a shooting here in Oakland, the gunman a twenty something high school dropout. At some point, the educational system failed that young man. I have to wonder whether the tragedy could’ve been avoided if somehow he hadn’t fallen through the cracks years before.
Check out another second year teacher’s reflections on my blog: http://teacherrevised.org/2009/03/25/dispatches-from-a-second-year-teacher-part-one/